i'll cherish this indefinitely

tr0n (10:13:14 PM): it's not too late

tr0n (10:15:56 PM): just promise me you won't give up

thep (10:18:38 PM): i will, promise to not give up.

tr0n (10:19:01 PM): i'll hold you to that

tr0n (10:20:35 PM): just don't be all suicidal and depressed, because that won't get you anywhere

thep (10:23:12 PM): i'll try to be a little less solemn and stuff

tr0n (10:23:30 PM): i'm not your mother, so you don't have to listen to me

tr0n (10:23:35 PM): i'm just a friend

tr0n (10:25:21 PM): ... who cares

tr0n (10:25:21 PM): haha

thep (10:26:03 PM): cheers!

please refrain from singing

reluctant to leave with less than 250 words said.

to leave this earth and have never made bread.

i should have known better.

that would love everything that you do.

my heart aches for its other half

someone who isn't a pathetic, tone-deaf mother fucker.

possibly someone who is virtuous and strives for excellence to this slacker of a person.

and tell me there isn't something so wrong with a boy who records his voice to hear himself in a brutally honest opinion.

desensitized,
my dreams will never materialize,
because i hide, behind white lies.

elephants they;ve become, no longer hidden to eyes.
habitual fib-maker,
this would only be okay if i was mockumentary filmer.
vilmer, he's soo cliche, all the words he used to say, was a gay passe.

i'm jack of no trades, who's work is all play.

at the end of the day, souless and empty as a bowl whipped cream.

ever thought

what made you interested in what you are in now?
was it because someone you found interesting or cool, liked it?
was it because you found something that was new and unpopular and tight at the same time?
was it because your friends all said, "lets make blah blah blah cool?"
was it because it was so outlandish and free flowing you can fully contribute anything to it?
was it because there was no rules, restraints, or professionals making a butt load off of it?

did you ever wonder what attracts you to women?
was it the bee stung lips inflated to voluptuous proportions?
was it the ratio of itty bitty waists to round things in your face?
was it the eyes of exploration that hypnotized you?
was it the clothing that yelled out, "i'm soo happy daddy gave me money for this."
was it the take charge, no beating around the bush, up in your grill attitude?
was it the independence to go make something out of herself the strong lady that she is?
was it the super flirty, talk to me after school, walk me to class, this is going nowhere scenarios?

how has your perspective of what makes you who you are tell you what you want to be?
was it the aunt and uncle that seemed like they were always having fun and staying perpetually young?
was it the momma that always said, "you're smart, but you're just very lazy?"
was it the grandparents that pampered, fed, & babysit your ass till this day?
was it the expectation that you could get something for nothing?
was it the i could do this tomorrow/later/tonight attitude?



i bet it was.

i bet all of this made this GOOD for nothing motha'ucka.

that's right im too badass for anything.

sooo i was un-cool

i was so un-cool my little sis thought i was a nerd,
ever since her birth,
and now she 10 years old.

i had bowl cut that was un-unique,
oversized pants and LA Sneaks,
Rocking Airwalks, i thought it was chic.
and so were the tucked in shirts that were too long for me.

i was so un cool i played with legos,
till i was 12.
i'd like to make citys and break them down,
instead of having a tamagochi,
i was playing digimon between my brother and me.
everyone was playing mortal combat,
and i played beavis and butt-head,
and i couldn't play those bloody games,
cause i'd always be dead.

i was staying in afterschool doing homework,
while the cool kids played foursquare without a care
and kickball, i know i wouldn't be able to kick it very far.
and then i get mad and kick over the ball cart.

i remember i would play with cap guns
to pretend to be cops and robbers,
my friends would air soft and shoot each other.
my friends started to buy lots of clothes & collect shoes
while i stayed home and watched saturday cartoons.
im 14.

im soo unfinished with this, i'll take another stab at this later this week.
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OTHA FISH

if you're an owl,
im up so late, im the early bird.
so no need for an early introduction
i keep myself far from the crowd,
third eye vision is what im allowed.
third person view, is how i speak to you.
chris p does not likey.
so you give me a new mikey.
im sick of my mac mic,
like aldrich is sick of being sick.
i hope that he gets better,
but i know he just got under the weather,
been looking a bit green,
not with envy.
cause he's got life figured out like its just game
or the game of life.
he's not scared, not trifiling, living to the fullest.
incorrect grammar goes again and brain fart induces.
me to lose this train of thought,
cause i thought trains go on rails
so i derailed, and got of topic,
my brain been pile driving like lucha va va voom,
its interesting to me because of violence and boobs
its vile in sense that its attractive,
its my negative,
im on top like a battery head
so im positive i like it.
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first verse 0:24- 1:14

im not gonna be the gentleman today,
cause all i want to say, is to be lewd,
i want eat you like tapatio covered food.
i love me some spicy,
if you're latina, who cares

cause i might be, Caucasian,
but for sure im into chicks who are cajun.
from, bayou aka south,

butter and grits,
im lovin it.
mcdonalds couldn't handle bitches.
cause he was fuckin cows,
thats why everything on his farm
made sounds like 6 times,
and then made his livestock into
homemade rinds.
and i'll spill my rhymes
filled thoughts of women,
im just kiddin,
they're like trouble,
im always in 'em.
yeah i pick em up like
like home remodelors need cheep day labor.
i think the world is like crater filled rocks,
and once in a while you get with amethyst or amber.

2ndverse
1:26-2:30

maybe my conduct towards women
is a bit degrading.
its better to catch one who is ovulating,
than be with one who wants to be eloping
cause being with my soul partner is not what im hoping,
its just to get a taste of every single kind,
like im ash ketchum.
the ass i will be fetchin
not the fetch kind like mean girls,
cause i dont want no freckled tits,
like stupid lindsey lohan,
the only guys that like her, call each other brohams,
i'll be like broseph,
what are you doing there's alot of other women,
are you gonna be joseph and let god knock her up?
imagine her in bed she'll be saying "OH JESUS.
oh my god pleases me,"
and joseph says "y'know there's otha fish in the sea that is.
cause i can hold out for any kind of scene misses.
tramp stamp kinds, who ever puts out is the type that i find,
attractive naturally. cause i dont care if they all on top of me.
even if they're bottom feeding crustraceans.
you'll know that im a doctor cause i have the best patients"

its funny how

women like drama, and men love comedy
and back during shakespeare's day
it was all testosterone and no femininity,
but now we got all the reality shows
and teen dramedies, oh the woe.
keeping the gossip up on people we don't know personally
the homliest guy in the show still looks better than me.
but its good that guys dont compare themselves to what girl thinks is hot,
and ladies try to keep up with women classified as not.

the imagebusters, are them non conformists, but can you really call em that?
to dress and looks like someone, its pretty flattering,
thats still copycat-ing,
to do your own thing because you shun the pop culture references?
a lot of people still do that,
so enjoi everything,
even be so critical as to get your gears clicking,
the lightbulb even flickering.
cause when people having laughs and sharing good times,
who cares about image when pretending to hate or like is just a mirage.

LAZERtag(7/23/08)

LAZERtag (for Men.)
Current mood: gallant
Category: Blogging

TAGGED BY: the one viet-mexi mutt. sophizle (you're not the only one with that name now, i have a new born cousin with that name. YAY!)

1. have way too many secrets.(here;s one i'm instantly infatuated with many women i MEET. the longest one running probably is a model. from school. who is artistic singaporian sushi.)



2. I hate not being able to see some of my closest friends on a daily basis.
(true that sister)



3. im a fkcn mutt.(the basic filipno=spanish, chinese, some actual filipino blood. and loads others.for me that is chinese, english, portuguese )




4. i get jealous really easy.




5. i feel very insecure when i have no one to talk to.




6. I 'm pretty sure i have an inferiority complex.




7. i'd rather be in school then in summer no life break. so i could see all my high school friends again.




8. i think i should get out of the house some more,(but im too afraid of being blown off to hang out, so i dont even bother to even set up plans.)




9. a year form now im going to be in a land far far away, with many brown people and squinty eyes, and i might not see anyone from the 323,626, 213. or whatever. bye byes in 11 months.



10. i dont know what i want to do with the rest of my life.




11. i keep a lot of receipts. and trash, as mementos, (without these pieces of "trash", i wouldn't be able to remember anything.)




12. i still dont have my diploma cause i havnet picked it up yet.




13. im a jack of all trades, but a master of nuns.(naww none.)




14. im rather generous when i have grip of money(which is rarely), BUT i am the meanest MOOCH in the world.



15.i totally scoff at what people wear even tho im not the ambassador of cool.




16.i want to have dirty sexual escapade with an experienced woman.(23ish sounds good...mmmm active erica.)

(superstitious seventeen!!: i haven't had a best friend in my whole entire life. (i wonder whyy??? i've considered many, there's just one thing i cant quite put my finger on to say he/she is my bff.)
17:i'm afraid of commitment to many things, school, a job, a girl, friends, i leave shit open like slut.
only because im 18:i have a MAN crush on aldrich manlutoc.

instructing true mentals

from the reverse of an already reversed MV of the pharcyde's drop (not an instrumental of the actual song but ill none the less.)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G7fJWw1-oi4

actual drop instrumental
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-C0aj4QFKn8

pharcyde again bullshit
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NsFhxZcS6vw

on the DL
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=StBhMpbhQcM

Souls of Mischief - Never No More
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=06UY5Eb7OmY

totally love this: otha fish! Pharcyde jam
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PigKhYCbI5A

4 better or 4 worse DJ NuMark RMX instru
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LAPdOR3EgjY

get on this shit ald.

Freestyle Fridays 2nd version (krew cut)

0:30-1:01 my verse.

the beginning of my day, i wake up late,
friday's the day i cook up rhymes just like my pancakes.
soo back to schurr to school a bunch of seniors.
I feel like getting told, i'm too old to be here.
yet young'uns still lend me their ears.
we only take breaks to tell security, not to interfere.
while ladies go to shakas for eggs & spamm,
hip hop heads pay respect to jump off n scribble jam
copying lines off our favorite MCs
the saurus, illmaculate, & DFD
these lyricists we look up to sure aint weak,
have you checked the latest battles posted up this week?



mastering their trade like a well oiled machine,
they way bring their swagger, makes em seem real mean.
that battle ish gets me nervous cause im still new to the scene.