you can't save the world, even when you have everything lain out before you, the score, is zero me, the world two.
"If I have lost confidence in myself, I have the whole world against me."
yes, that has already happened, but i pick up the pieces that make up me, forgetting a few along the way.
and feeling bi-curious and shit before i even have had a girlfriend.
i just feel like i need someone to need me.
there are, but that's not the kind of person i am talking about.
i'm lost, im putting a front, and probably not sure that what i am. what i am now is not my true face.
but i don't want to ask him, i don't believe in asking someone who can't help me in anyway.
but then when do i ask for help? flaw #1: i am too proud to ask for help even when i know i need it.
i'm pretty sure i participate the 7 deadly sins, you know em. sloth, greed, gluttony, envy, wrath, lust & pride.
i wish i have things, i get upset when i cannot achieve something, then i become lazy and "over it", i look at women for their bodies and not their minds, i over eat in sweets and junk food, and sometimes i feel i need to splurge on myself.
but then the only time i would cover myself by saying that, "i'm only human."
i would counterpoint by saying "i am an incompetent fool at that too."
giving up at the first chance, because quitting is what i know best.
keep in mind i go back and forward over this in my head.
that's probably i feel 7 years immature & 7 years out of shape.
and its also sad to know my life here in So. Cal is going to be over in a matter of seasons.
